serenade
this ocean, singing,
emerald green and midnight blue
carries me away
this ocean, singing,
emerald green and midnight blue
carries me away
here i am
or so it seems
on this rocky sea bed
strange fish swimming by stare
impolitely
at me
i would like to, crablike, crawl
deep into hidden crevices
and seek counsel
from the wise octopi
Honorable Octopi,
i seem to have sunk down
quite gill-less and un-finned
uh, rather hapless here
a mere, terrestrial, mortal in these depths
Could you please perhaps advise?
As nearly everything seems to have gone awry.
five large octopi
pulsing, and
floating gravity free bobbing lightly
look at me
and then at one another
and then at me again
(i anxiously regret every takoyaki i’ve ever eaten and consider
this may not necessarily end all that well
for me)
five pairs of eyes narrow, and
i don’t know how many long flowing tentacle-like arms start
unfurling around my face
landing soft inquisitive pokes and jabs
then suddenly
one arm like a flash of lightening
hurls a small sparkling stone behind me
and i swivel
ready to run away but am stoped by the five octopi
What are you doing, Tako? I ask, both nervously and annoyed
We are not Tako…
But in Japanese…
NO, not Tako!
Um, Yaki? I laugh, unable to stop myself.
A flurry of arms move the water all around sweeping me off my feet,
and ten eyes narrow in on me…
We are the Honorable Consortium of Octopi, we are
Your High Holiness the Grand Octopi of the Deep!
I squirm. All ten eyes seem to burrow into my soul, leaving no stone
unturned
And my long laundry list of woes out of the water surface
bubbling up one by one
bobbing, floating, gravity free
just like
The Honorable Consortium of Octopi
like rhythmic gymnasts, these five octopi begin playing with
and dancing,
twirling and tossing, spinning and balancing
all my woe ball bubbles
around!
You terrestrials take everything much too seriously
said the octopi, laughing
at me
All these woes of yours… what are they really?
Look, look closely, very closely, carefully…
they instructed while holding out one particularly large woe ball bubble
to me
resting it lightly in their long sucker-lined arms
and as i looked, my so-called woe ball bubble was shining softly,
like a crystal ball
drawing me further and further into its round sphere
where memories and emotions slid around shifting like sand
like a kaleidoscope
new patterns continuously emerging into view
one after another, each one
special somehow, beautiful, and entirely unexpected
mesmerizing
i was spellbound
tap, tap-tap…
an octopus tentacle on my shoulder
snapped me out of my woe ball bubble turned crystal ball kaleidoscope reverie
See? Terrestrial, it’s infinite, like mirrors mirroring mirrors
an endless parade of possibility
a playroom, perhaps
or a dance
a gem
and-just-like-that—
poof!
The Honorable Consortium of Octopi
disappeared,
all but right winked out of time and space…
Your High Holiness the Grand Octopi of the Deep,
i whispered
into the watery silence around me,
Thank You.
And, um… No more takoyaki for me. I promise. From now on it’s tomato-yaki.
but, The Honorable Consortium of Octopi
had vanished
without a trace
i take a deep breath and am about to push off this sea bed
to swim back up to the surface
but then i spy
a small sparkling stone
and i see it is not just any small sparkling stone
it’s a gem
smiling, i put it in my pocket
and i know
we’ll be alright
[Image by Erik Tanghe from Pixabay]
here, out on the shore
teetering on edge
i need the warmth of your hand
holding mine
my chest, burning with the ash and smoke of yesteryear
rises and falls,
swells with deep ocean waves
i want salt on my tongue
the grit of sand in my mouth
as i plunge
into the unknown
into this darkness
descending
further and further down
to the very
rock
bottom
to the fissure where
lava meets water
steaming
and hissing like snakes out of nowhere
out loud
screaming
where this primordial earth is churning
and grinding
the bones of my ancestors
into diamonds and pearls
into gold
into the fiery horizon
of new day
and at the break of dawn
hand in hand
we fly
as haiku:
seven thousand miles
step by step and side by side
this journey of life
as free verse poetry:
in the middle of the journey
neither shore can be seen
in the middle
the deep unknown rises to the surface and stretches
seven thousand miles in every direction
and becomes
horizon
in the middle
there is no forwards nor backwards
there is only this journey itself
step by step
and life, like a siren to the soul,
is salt and honey
and the waves crashing
but even here, in the middle, in the deep endless blue
you stay
everywhere with me
like an angel, or
an immortal dragon—guardian of my heart
and together, side by side, we see
a bright shining light
polaris
of the night
somewhere
there is an ocean of beyond
an ocean beyond good & bad
beyond light & dark and love & hate
and black & white
beyond, there is an ocean of rising and falling
breathing
in and out
an inhale and an exhale threaded, soft, and
connected
together
inseparable actually, and
one
this ocean of beyond is beautiful—wide and deep and infinite
will you meet me there?
Whoever you are and wherever you are, I hope that your path and your days are grounded in peace. I hope you find in the outer world around you, beauty that brings solace to your heart… and in your heart, an inexhaustible wellspring of joy.
i did not come here just to love you
i came here
to be love
together with you
to dance
and in one another
come home
breathlessly with these deep sighing waves
eternally and endlessly
like stars
i came here
to be together with you
in love
i step into the water cold tingling my toes ankles the backsides of my knees swirling all around submerged with the water i run twisting and turning wind like through wild summer prairies and snow-steeped tundra in winter i run falling and flowing light like through slot canyons gorges and ravines i run with the water i run cascading and streaming over and down ever onwards out ahead and forwards i run i run to the ocean to the magical ocean of my dreams
into these salty cold yet saline warm waves i plunge i meet the full weight of these giant sea swells with my one body my body that tastes this world through skin bare skin exposed to light and to winds through soft bone marrow steeped in the red soil of this earth my body that loves with its small fist-sized heart pounding ceaselessly still—like these deep ocean currents inside this unfathomable depth inside this unnameable mystery inside this place of darkness where light cannot reach nor enter i meet the full weight of these giant sea swells i plunge i surrender my one body to life
*Nagoshi no harai 夏越の祓い is the name of a mid-summer purification ritual conducted at shrines in the end of June in Japan. We walk through a large circle constructed of grass and make a pattern in the shape of the number eight, or the infinity symbol.
Dear Human,
in my round body this hard and heavy world rests carefree and content
Yours truly,
Rock
Some poems seem to take on a life of their own. Apropos perhaps, I do not remember when I wrote the first version of the poem below—only that it was a very long time ago—and it seems also to have no end. I’ve come back to it multiple times, tweaked it here and there, but its completion is forever illusive. Like snake tracks in the desert sand, it evades capture. This poem of beginnings and endings, has neither. Maybe we are all like that, without beginning nor ending, in reality… and our essential self too, like snake tracks in the desert sand, evades capture.
beginnings
In every beginning
there is death
and in all death, there is rebirth.
Do you remember your beginning?
We are a continuum, of
eternity & nothingness
polarity & unity
a quivering consciousness sometimes shackled
by words.
Freezing bits of existence
into b/l_o.c+k-s tumbling
from our mouths
we trip
in the rubble of our own expression.
Until weary, perhaps
with splintered and twisted feet
we lay down, seeking
nothing
other than earth
and sky.
Here we find, an infinite desert.
Here our hollowed self, shimmers
alive
reawakened
in an instant of eternity.
A single drop of rain falls
into the soul
and the membrane of each cell shivers
shedding itself
into currents of grace
flowing and
flowing like blood into
crevices
and over rocks and into ancient
ravines
returning devoutly
inevitably
to firelit waves of a primordial sea.
Do you remember
your beginning?