all along i thought he was holding my hand, and walking me into the l i g h t but now it seems, rather my angel has been leading me on, and into the darkness deeper, and deeper still and across this river of no return and why i? i have all but disappeared from myself here… here where i am nowhere and my angel is everywhere in me and what then? when the last of twilight deepens into a moonless night will these eyes opened see? blinded no longer by l i g h t