the deepest shade of love is black that unknowable depth from which all creation comes—and ultimately returns is the kindest love unconditional embracing infinite in black, there's every shade of grey and white is taken in everywhere in this moment feel raven wings alight and hear the midnight of winter solstice they swirl an elemental vortex folding into itself the sharpest cut of diamond and in the tender arms of blackness even rainbows find reprieve from arching displays of color writ loudly in sky blue and now somewhere far, far out in the distance nearby lies a black panther limbs resting softly on the dark belly of the earth she stirs into the heart of all being a power the deepest shade of love
and stumbling along the seashore she found in the round curves of a rock her heart Ah-ha! she exclaimed Here is the perfect gift to give my love This heartrock warm in the sun is my heart my heart of eternal love May the seasons spin round and round and around and may the storms wail and rage and rage until they turn themselves skyblue Meanwhile my heart remains here unchanged on this seashore—on this woven red strand by dusk and by dawn dancing all the sparkles the light and the shadows into one into one timeless one timeless and divine love
clouds have so very much to say it seems capturing the light and the shadow both out here in this summery blue if i could just fly straight up and into those soft billows and linger awhile i'm sure i'd hear a heartbeat and a silver voice singing singing the shapeshifting story of the skies
in the black ink of sky stars dance toes dipped in glitter bodies draped in sheer silk swirling, arched, sweeping they scribe a new path across the milky way and ignite fire in this body burning a virgin light tumbled raw open and naked yet wrapped up in these angel arms i'm carried across the threshold into a new spiral of glittering galaxies into this dance into this eternal house of love
maybe if i spill open my heart at the break of dawn and let love shine like sun gold as it climbs over peaks tops and ridges glittering everything into new day and maybe if i embrace the light with noontide soaring to release my fears from the shadows secrets and silence like feathers they'll erupt into euphoria and flight maybe if i serenade the dark as dusk deepens and surrender my dreams like sand they drift to ocean beds singing dancing and shifting into pearls sparkling in the night and maybe if i pour my self into the soft fold of night to fall steeped in love like moons swollen cradled and hungry for the round gravity of blackness then surely when i dance for you until i die and give my body to a sacred fire in beauty i will have danced lived prayed and loved in beauty i will embrace death
i step into the water cold tingling my toes ankles the backsides of my knees swirling all around submerged with the water i run twisting and turning wind like through wild summer prairies and snow-steeped tundra in winter i run falling and flowing light like through slot canyons gorges and ravines i run with the water i run cascading and streaming over and down ever onwards out ahead and forwards i run i run to the ocean to the magical ocean of my dreams
my heart like a murmuration of starlings races, swooping and soaring all throughout these rosé wine skies aglow and glimmering twilight like a murmuration of starlings i'm flying here in the light and over there in the shadows somewhere, i know there is a pathway or a secret door somewhere here in the open wild of these fields, windswept and pink or here somewhere, in this enclave of elms, shifting and shady i am sure, i am sure... here is the pathway or the secret door like a murmuration of starlings i long for home to feel forever somewhere here or there or somewhere anywhere this skin soft landing in your arms your arms holding holding my heart
the river's soft skin slows wild rapids of my heart running to the sea
if today i die may beauty be my only footprints in the sand
Ikigai, raison d’être, purpose, legacy… What is it, ultimately, that propels you forward in life? That keeps your fires burning at night and wakens you from your morning slumber? That enables you to rise again and once again, after each and every stumble or fall? That heals your grieving heart after loss? That brings you to your feet when life has brought you to your knees? That causes you to smile, once again?
Now and then life brings these questions to me, and inevitably, in one way or the other, I always come back to hózhó. Hózhó is the Navajo word for “beauty,” however, it is not limited to notions of aesthetic beauty but encapsulates a profound paradigmatic lens of beauty as composite expression of harmony, peace, balance, and reciprocity. Hózhó is my north star and my raison d’être.
And what is yours?
They say that each of us has come here for a reason, to fulfill some particular longing of the soul. Perhaps it is to experience joy, or love. Perhaps it is to be joy, or love, or beauty. Perhaps it is to learn how to rise again and smile, against all odds. Perhaps it is to acquire a soft heart after hardship. Or to discover light at the end of the tunnel, or to become that light. And it could simply be to discover whatever it actually is—that, that seemingly eternal chimera.
Whatever yours is, may it propel you ever forward on your path. May you walk in beauty. May you journey well. May your dreams be fulfilled.
you and i belong like flowers and warm sunshine always together